Geez..it took me awhile to get my 1st blog registered...phew..didnt know it was that complicated..anyway..ive done it. Wut shall i write eh? lemme think awhile..plenty i guess..things that stuck in my heart that makes me feel hurt n painful as well..but wut da heck man..it happens. i woke up quite late today almost 11am..(uhuk..am i not late alwayz?hahaha) things pretty good..took the newspaper..read it..nah..normal news..killings here n there..the world is getting smaller now. everyone seems to be hungry of power..let it be..erk...im hungry too..but..im fasting tho. anyway..i woke up then went to my pc just to check for any mails..mostly office matters..NOne..!! bah.. Then my i woke up my friend..my close buddy. she was half awake..so i called her several times..finally she stood up and went straight to the bathroom. and when she came to me she said.."hey u wanna know sumthin'? sumtimes i just hated u so much..i despise u..i think i better go home to my hometown.." For once..i thot i was hearing a soap drama..i looked at her..tryin' to be cheeky as usual..coverin' the hurt with the words that she used to me. I can take the word hate..but not DESPISE!! geez..i cant believe..it hurts, but i swallowed it down inside. she didnt know the feelings..no..she will never know. its ok..she is being frank..open. dats alright with me. life has to go on..

left the house heading towards UM..as usual..office matters..met my other good friend there..delivered orders and hey..she gave cash RM610.00. but that aint my money.. hmmm.. later fetch my cousin sister to do her routine job..paying bills..etc etc..now i am the driver. everything goes well, until i found out that we lost rm3,900 from our account. and she started telling me that i have been spending lotsa money for computers etc..etc.. it hurts again. i havent been using the company's fund. i dunno wat exactly is going on now.. just let it be. then my UM friend called me telling me to ask my buddy..i shall name her as Pooh cos bear loves honey. Pooh refused to meet up with Dr. Fat saying that she is scared her mum might not like it. Then she raised her voice and said..you re pressuring me!! and i told her..im just trying to help u out..everyone is..!! but she just kept quiet. Later i just shut my bloody mouth. Pooh and my cousin they have so much similarities..and they both normally hurt me at the same time..sometimes..i just cant take it..anyway..its ok.

now i am at home..to make things worst...Pooh is sitting next to me..and yet she is ignoring me..she is watching Nemo..I guess I better leave too..bye for now